This guy in high school, he was so cute,
all the girls wanted him and I did too.
He asked me to smoke a joint with him,
I accepted…considering it an honor.
Walking through the woods, I had second thoughts.
“Hey, I don’t know you that well.”
“What do you think I want to fuck you?”
Caught off guard, I went against my conscious.
We smoked a joint of weed while
Marvin Gaye, “Let’s get it on” played.
He then wanted sex, I became frightened.
Trapped at his friend’s house, I could not run.
I begged, “Please, no, don’t hurt me.”
“Let’s be friends first and then we’ll come back.”
He pulled my hair and threatened to use a gun.
I was forced to undo my double zipped jeans.
He raped me and I screamed, the pain was legendary.
Home is where I healed in private.
Bleeding for three days, my hymen was broken.
Not knowing whether to be a girl or a woman,
I just knew my virginity was gone….Forever.
written by Joan Farley Nyobe